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1、www.XiYuS锡育软件For a long time in my life,I felt like Id been living twodifferent lives.在我生命中非常长的一段时间内,我感觉我在过着两种不同的人生。00:12Theres the life that everyone sees,and then theres the lifethat only I see.一个是每个人都看见的人生,另一个是只有我能看见的人生。00:19And in the life that everyone sees,who I am is a friend,a son,a brother,

2、a stand-up comedian and a teenager.在每个人都能看见的人生里,我的角色是一个朋友、儿子、兄弟、喜剧演员和一名青少年。00:26Thats the life everyone sees.这是每个人都看到的人生。00:37If you were to ask my friends and family to describe me,thats what they would tell you.如果你要问我的朋友和家人来形容我,这是他们会告诉你的。00:39And thats a huge part of me.That is who I am.这是很大一部分的我

3、这是我在这社会上的角色00:43And if you were to ask me to describe myself,Id probablysay some of those same things.如果你要我自己来形容我,我可能会说一些与上相同的东西。00:45And I wouldnt be lying,but I wouldnt totally be telling youthe truth,either,because the truth is,thats just the lifeeveryone else sees.我不会说谎,但也不会完全会告诉你真相,因为事实是,这就是其他人

4、看到的人生。00:50In the life that only I see,who I am,who I really am,issomeone who struggles intensely with depression.另外一个人生只有我自己能看到 我是谁 我其实是一个与抑郁症激烈斗争的人。01:02I have for the last six years of my life,and I continue to everyday.在生命中的近六年来 我与抑郁症斗争 也会在接下来的每一天内继续斗争。01:12stand-up:adj.站立的;直立的;说单口相声的 comedian:n

5、.喜剧演员;滑稽人物 intensely:adv.强烈地;紧张地;热情地depression:n.沮丧;洼地;不景气;忧愁Now,for someone who has never experienced depression ordoesnt really know what that means,that might surprisethem to hear,because theres this pretty popularmisconception that depression is just being sad whensomething in your life goes wro

6、ng,when you break up withyour girlfriend,when you lose a loved one,when you dontget the job you wanted.对于从未经历过抑郁的人 或不太知道这是什么意思的人,他们听到这些也许会感到诧异,因为在社会上有普遍的误解认为说 抑郁症只是在当你生命中出了什么差错的时候 会难过,当你和你的女朋友分手 当你失去心爱的人,当你找不到理想的工作的时候。01:20But thats sadness.Thats a natural thing.但这只是悲伤。这是一件很自然的事情。01:37Thats a natura

7、l human emotion.这是自然的人类情感。01:39Real depression isnt being sad when something in your lifegoes wrong.真正的抑郁不是 当你生命中出了差错的时候悲伤。01:41Real depression is being sad when everything in your life isgoing right.真正的抑郁是 当你生活中的一切都好的时候悲伤。01:48Thats real depression,and thats what I suffer from.那才是真正的抑郁,而那才是我所遭受的。01

8、:53And to be totally honest,thats hard for me to stand up hereand say.坦诚说,出现在这里并且把它公之于众是一件很难的事。01:55Its hard for me to talk about,and it seems to be hard foreveryone to talk about,so much so that no ones talkingabout it.我很难去把它诉说,这似乎也很难让每个人去谈这一点,以至于没有人去谈它。02:00And no ones talking about depression,but

9、 we need to be,because right now its a massive problem.没有人会去谈抑郁,但我们需要去谈论它 因为现在它一个很大的问题。02:07misconception:n.误解;错觉;错误想法 suffer from:忍受,遭受;患病;受之苦Its a massive problem.这是一个巨大的问题。02:13But we dont see it on social media,right?但我们并没有看到它出现在媒体上,对吗？02:15We dont see it on Facebook.We dont see it on Twitter.我们

10、没有在 Facebook 上看到它 我们也没有在Twitter 上看到它。02:17We dont see it on the news,because its not happy,its notfun,its not light.我们也没有在新闻上看到它,因为它不是快乐的,是不有趣的,也不是光明的。02:19And so because we dont see it,we dont see the severity ofit.于是,正因为我们看不到它,所以我们没有意识到它的严重性。02:22But the severity of it and the seriousness of it is

11、 this:every 30然而它的确很严重:每隔 30 秒钟,每隔 30 秒,在某TED演讲者：Kevin Breel|Kevin Breel演讲标题：Confessions of a depressed comic|一个抑郁喜剧演员的自白内容概要：Kevin Breel didn.t look like a depressed kid:team captain,at every party,funny andconfident.But he tells the story of the night he realized that-to save his own life-he neede

12、dto say four simple words.凯文布莱尔并不像一个抑郁的小孩:他是篮球队队长，参加各种派对，幽默并且自信。但它讲述的是有一个晚上他认识到-拯救他自 己的人生-他需要的只是说四个字。But the severity of it and the seriousness of it is this:every 30seconds,every 30 seconds,somewhere,someone in the worldtakes their own life because of depression,个地方,在这个世界上的某个人就在 因为抑郁而自杀,02:26and it

13、 might be two blocks away,it might be two countriesaway,it might be two continents away,but its happening,and its happening every single day.它有可能是在两个街区之外,它也可能在两个国家之外,它可能是两个大洲之外,但它正在发生,而且每一天都在发生着。02:37And we have a tendency,as a society,to look at that and go,So what?作为一个社会 我们有一种趋势,看着这种情况会说,那又怎样?02:4

14、3So what?We look at that,and we go,Thats your problem.那又怎样？我们知道这个情况然后说,这是你的问题。02:51Thats their problem.这是他们的问题。”02:56We say were sad and we say were sorry,but we also say,Sowhat?我们说我们很难过,我们说我们感到很抱歉,但我们还说,那又怎样?02:58severity:n.严重;严格;猛烈 seriousness:n.严重性;严肃;认真 continents:n.地理大陆,大洲(continent复数)Well,two

15、years ago it was my problem,because I sat on theedge of my bed where Id sat a million times before and Iwas suicidal.好吧,两年前,它是我的问题,因为我坐在我的床边曾坐过千百万次的床边 想着要自杀。03:02I was suicidal,and if you were to look at my life on thesurface,you wouldnt see a kid who was suicidal.我有自杀倾向,但如果你从表面上看我的生活,你不会看到一个自杀倾向的孩子

16、。03:17Youd see a kid who was the captain of his basketball team,the drama and theater student of the year,the Englishstudent of the year,someone who was consistently on thehonor roll and consistently at every party.你会看到一个篮球队队长、今年戏剧班的学生、今年学习英语的学生、一个经常出现在荣誉榜上的 和一个经常出现在任何派对上的人。03:23So you would say I w

17、asnt depressed,you would say I wasntsuicidal,but you would be wrong.所以你会说我不是抑郁,你会说 我不是自杀,但你就错了。03:33You would be wrong.So I sat there that night beside a bottleof pills with a pen and paper in my hand and I thought abouttaking my own life and I came this close to doing it.你就错了。所以我那天晚上坐在床上 旁边是一瓶药,我手上

18、拿着纸笔 我想着要终结自己的生命 我差一点点就做了03:38I came this close to doing it.我差点就这样做了。03:49And I didnt,so that makes me one of the lucky ones,one ofthe people who gets to step out on the ledge and look downbut not jump,one of the lucky ones who survives.然而我没有 所以我成为了幸运的一份子,一个人从边缘中走下来的人 我从我的人生大楼向下看但并没有跳下去,我是幸运活下来的人之一。

19、03:50on the edge of:adv.几乎;濒于;在边缘 suicidal:adj.自杀的,自杀性的;自我毁灭的;自取灭亡的 consistently:adv.一贯地;一致地;坚实地 depressed:adj.沮丧的；萧条的；压低的/v.使沮丧；使萧条(depress的过去式和过去分词形式)；压低 stepout:走出去;暂时外出 ledge:n.壁架;突出之部份;暗礁;矿层Well,I survived,and that just leaves me with my story,andmy story is this:In four simple words,I suffer f

20、romdepression.嗯,我活下来了,那让我跟我的故事并存,我的故事是:简单的四个字,患抑郁症。04:00I suffer from depression,and for a long time,I think,I wasliving two totally different lives,where one person was alwaysafraid of the other.我患上抑郁症,在很长时间,我想,我在活着两个完全不同的人生,一个总是害怕别人的人。04:08I was afraid that people would see me for who I really was

21、,that I wasnt the perfect,popular kid in high school everyonethought I was,that beneath my smile,there was struggle,and beneath my light,there was dark,and beneath my bigpersonality just hid even bigger pain.我害怕人们会看到我真实的样子,并不是一个每个人都认为我是的样子:高中的风光小孩,我其实并不完美 在我的微笑下面是斗争,在我的光明下面是黑暗,在我的人格下藏着更深层次的痛苦。04:22S

22、ee,some people might fear girls not liking them back.比如有些人害怕喜欢的女生不喜欢他。04:36Some people might fear sharks.Some people might feardeath.有些人可能害怕鲨鱼。有些人可能会害怕死亡。04:39But for me,for a large part of my life,I feared myself.但对我来说,我生命中的很大一部分是害怕我自己。04:41I feared my truth,I feared my honesty,I feared myvulnerabi

23、lity,and that fear made me feel like I was forcedinto a corner,like I was forced into a corner and there wasonly one way out,and so I thought about that way everysingle day.我害怕真相,我害怕诚实,我害怕脆弱,这种恐惧让我感觉到 就像我被被逼迫到一个角落里,就像我被逼到角落里,只有一个出路,于是,我每一天都这样想。04:46I thought about it every single day,and if Im being

24、 totallyhonest,standing here Ive thought about it again since,because thats the sickness,thats the struggle,thatsdepression,and depression isnt chicken pox.我每一天都这样想,如果我完全诚实的站在这里 我告诉你我有再次想过,因为这就是疾病,这就是斗争,那是抑郁,抑郁症不是水痘。05:00pox:n.痘;疹;发疹的疾病;瘟疫You dont beat it once and its gone forever.抑郁症不是水痘。05:09Its s

25、omething you live with.Its something you live in.它跟你相依为命。它是你生命里的东西。05:11Its the roommate you cant kick out.Its the voice you cant它是你不能踢出去的室友。它是你不能忽视的杂音。05:14Its the roommate you cant kick out.Its the voice you cantignore.音。05:14Its the feelings you cant seem to escape,the scariest part isthat after

26、a while,you become numb to it.It becomes normalfor you,and what you really fear the most isnt the sufferinginside of you.它是你不能逃脱的情感,最可怕的是过了一段时间,你变得麻木。它对于你来说已经很正常了,你真正最害怕的 不是你内心的痛苦。05:18Its the stigma inside of others,its the shame,its theembarrassment,its the disapproving look on a friendsface,its t

27、he whispers in the hallway that youre weak,its thecomments that youre crazy.这是在别人眼里的耻辱 它是耻辱,是尴尬,它是朋友脸上不赞成的表情,它是走廊的低语,轻声说你太懦弱,它是你疯了的评语。05:33www.XiYuS锡育软件Thats what keeps you from getting help.这就是让你得不到帮助的原因。05:44Thats what makes you hold it in and hide it.这就是让你它控制它和隐藏它的原因。05:46Its the stigma.So you ho

28、ld it in and you hide it,and youhold it in and you hide it,and even though its keeping youin bed every day and its making your life feel empty nomatter how much you try and fill it,you hide it,because thestigma in our society around depression is very real.因为这是一种耻辱。所以你控制它和隐藏它,你控制它个隐藏它,即使它让你每一天待在床上 它

29、让你的人生感到空虚无论你怎样努力地去填补它,你隐藏它,因为在我们的社会中 有关抑郁症的耻辱感是非常真实的。05:49kick out:v.解雇;开除;把球踢出界 numb:vt.使麻木;使发愣;使失去感觉/adj.麻木的;发愣的 stigma:n.植柱头;耻辱;污名;烙印;特征 embarrassment:n.窘迫,难堪;使人为难的人或事物;拮据 disapproving:adj.反对的;不赞成的/v.不赞成;不同意(disapprove的ing形式)whispers:n.低语(whisper的复数);沙沙声/v.低声地说;私下说(whisper的三单形式)hallway:n.走廊;门厅;玄关

30、Its very real,and if you think that it isnt,ask yourself this:Would you rather make your next Facebook status say yourehaving a tough time getting out of bed because you hurtyour back它很真实,如果你认为它不是,问问你自己:你想让你的下一个 Facebook 状态是 说你很难下床 因为你背有伤06:03or youre having a tough time getting out of bed everymorn

31、ing because youre depressed?还是你很难下床 是因为你抑郁？06:12Thats the stigma,because unfortunately,we live in a worldwhere if you break your arm,everyone runs over to sign yourcast,but if you tell people youre depressed,everyone runsthe other way.这是耻辱,因为不幸的是,我们生活在一个如果你的胳膊伤了,大家都跑过去要在你的石膏上签名,但如果你告诉人们你抑郁,每个人跑向了另外一

32、边。06:16Thats the stigma.而这就是耻辱。06:26We are so,so,so accepting of any body part breaking downother than our brains.And thats ignorance.我们是如此接受任何身体部位受损 除了我们的大脑。这是一种无知。06:29Thats pure ignorance,and that ignorance has created aworld that doesnt understand depression,that doesntunderstand mental health.纯

33、粹的无知,制造这种无知的是 一个不了解抑郁症的世界 不懂心理健康的世界。06:37And thats ironic to me,because depression is one of thebest documented problems we have in the world,yet its oneof the least discussed.对于我来说这很讽刺,因为抑郁 是我们这世界上最有迹可循的问题之一 然而它是最少被讨论的话题之一。06:43We just push it aside and put it in a corner and pretend itsnot there a

34、nd hope itll fix itself.我们只是把它放到一边,放到角落里 假装它不存在,并希望它就好了。06:49ignorance:n.无知，愚昧；不知，不懂 ironic:adj.讽刺的;反话的 documented:adj.备有证明文件的Well,it wont.It hasnt,and its not going to,because thatswishful thinking,and wishful thinking isnt a game plan,itsprocrastination,and we cant procrastinate on somethingthis i

35、mportant.它不会、它没有、也不即将要,因为那只是一厢情愿,一厢情愿不是一个游戏计划,它是拖沓,而我们不能拖延这么重要的事情。06:55The first step in solving any problem is recognizing there isone.解决任何问题的第一步 是认识到这一问题的存在。07:08Well,we havent done that,so we cant really expect to findan answer when were still afraid of the question.我们还没能做到,所以我们不能期待 当我们还在害怕问题的时候找

36、到答案。07:13And I dont know what the solution is.我不知道该解决方案是什么。07:19I wish I did,but I dont-but I think,I think it has to starthere.我希望我知道,但我不知道 但我认为,我认为它已经在这里开始。07:23It has to start with me,it has to start with you,it has to startwith the people who are suffering,the ones who are hiddenin the shadows.它

37、和我一同开始,它与你一同开始,它与遭受过的人们一同开始,那些被隐藏在阴影中的人们。07:27We need to speak up and shatter the silence.我们需要说出来打破沉默。07:35wishful thinking:n.如意算盘;痴心妄想 game plan:n.策略/制胜战术 step in:介入;插手干预;作短时间的非正式访问recognizing:v.认识;承认;察觉(recognize的ing形式)/n.认识;承认/adj.认识的;识别的 to start with:adv.首先;作为开始(等于forastart)speak up:更大声地说;无保留地说

38、出 shatter:vt.粉碎;打碎;破坏;破掉;使散开/vi.粉碎;损坏;落叶/n.碎片;乱七八糟的状态We need to be the ones who are brave for what we believe in,我们需要成为那些为我们相信的事情而勇敢的人,因为如果有一件事是我认识到的,那就是,如果有一We need to be the ones who are brave for what we believe in,because if theres one thing that Ive come to realize,iftheres one thing that I see

39、 as the biggest problem,its not inbuilding a world where we eliminate the ignorance of others.因为如果有一件事是我认识到的,那就是,如果有一件事是我知道是最要紧的问题,它并不是创造一个我们消除他人的无知的世界。07:37Its in building a world where we teach the acceptance ofourselves,where were okay with who we are,because whenwe get honest,we see that we all

40、struggle and we all suffer.而是创造一个我们接受自己的世界,接受我们真实的自己,因为当我们诚实面对的时候,我们会看到我们所有的斗争和所有的苦难。07:52Whether its with this,whether its with something else,we allknow what it is to hurt.无论是抑郁症,还是别的事情,我们都知道什么是痛苦的。08:01We all know what it is to have pain in our heart,and we allknow how important it is to heal.我们都

41、知道我们的心中有苦 我们也知道去疗伤有多重要。08:06But right now,depression is societys deep cut that werecontent to put a Band-Aid over and pretend its not there.但是现在,抑郁症是社会的伤口 我们习惯于把创口贴贴上就假装它不存在。08:11Well,it is there.It is there,and you know what?Its okay.而它是存在的。而且你知道么？它并没什么。08:17Depression is okay.If youre going throug

42、h it,know thatyoure okay.抑郁症没什么。因为如果你克服了它,你就知道你没事。08:21And know that youre sick,youre not weak,and its an issue,not an identity,because when you get past the fear and theridicule and the judgment and the stigma of others,you cansee depression for what it really is,and thats just a part oflife,just a

43、 part of life,and as much as I hate,as much as I hatesome of the places,知道虽然你病了,但你并不脆弱,它是一个问题,不是一个身份标签,因为当你经历过你过去的恐惧和嘲笑 别人对你的看法和耻辱,你就可以看到抑郁症真实的身份,它只是生活的一部分,只是生活的一部分,虽然我讨厌,就像我讨厌的一些地方,08:25ridicule:vt.嘲笑;嘲弄;愚弄/n.嘲笑;笑柄;愚弄some of the parts of my life depression has dragged medown to,in a lot of ways Im

44、grateful for it.我生活的某一部分已经被抑郁症拖垮,但在很多方面上我是非常感激的。08:45Because yeah,its put me in the valleys,but only to show metheres peaks,and yeah its dragged me through the darkbut only to remind me there is light.因为它是让我经历低谷,但只是为了向我证明有高峰,是的,它将我拉进了黑暗,但只是为了提醒我有光。08:51My pain,more than anything in 19 years on this

45、planet,hasgiven me perspective,and my hurt,my hurt has forced me tohave hope,have hope and to have faith,faith in myself,faithin others,faith that it can get better,that we can change this,that we can speak up and speak out and fight back againstignorance,fight back against intolerance,and more than

46、anything,learn to love ourselves,learn to accept ourselves forwho we are,the people we are,not the people the worldwants us to be.我的痛苦,比我在生活的十九年的任何事都能 给我看待事情的角度,而我的伤口 让我有了希望 有希望,有信念,对我自己的信念 对其他人的新年,可以更好的信念,我们可以改变这一点,我们可以把它说出来 说出来与对抗无知,反击不容忍,还有一件比什么都重要的是,那就是,学会爱自己,学会接受我们自己,我们不是别人想要我们成为的那个人。08:58Becau

47、se the world I believe in is one where embracing yourlight doesnt mean ignoring your dark.因为我相信在这个世界上 拥抱光明并不意味着忽略黑暗。09:30valleys:n.山谷(valley的复数);凹处 peaks:n.山顶;峰巅(peak的复数)speak out:畅所欲言;大胆地说;大声地说 fight back:回击;抵抗 intolerance:n.(尤指对别人的意见)不宽容;偏狭 embracing:n.拥抱/v.拥抱,包含(embrace的现在分词形式)The world I believe

48、 in is one where were measured by ourability to overcome adversities,not avoid them.我相信的世界是一个我们被评判的标准是 我们克服逆境的能力,不是逃避它们。09:36The world I believe in is one where I can look someone in theeye and say,Im going through hell,我相信的世界是一个我可以看着某一个人的眼睛并说,我正在过着地狱般的生活,09:43and they can look back at me and go,Me

49、too,and thatsokay,and its okay because depression is okay.Were people.他们可以也看着我跟我说,“我也是”这是可以接受的,这没关系因为抑郁没什么。我们都是人。09:49Were people,and we struggle and we suffer and we bleedand we cry,and if you think that true strength means nevershowing any weakness,then Im here to tell you yourewrong.我们是人,我们斗争、我们遭

50、受痛苦 我们流血、我们哭,如果你认为真正的力量 代表从未有任何弱点,那么我在这里 要告诉你你错了。09:56Youre wrong,because its the opposite.你错了,因为它是相反的。10:07Were people,and we have problems.我们是人,我们会有问题。10:11Were not perfect,and thats okay.我们不是完美的,而这没什么。10:13So we need to stop the ignorance,stop the intolerance,stopthe stigma,and stop the silence,a